wow this school year so far has been soooo much better than 9th grade last year. i've been having alot more fun cuz i finally have my bsf in not just 1 but 2 classes with me ₍₍⚞(˶˃ ꒳ ˂˶)⚟⁾⁾!! I think it feels easier since we don't have as much work which is werid cuz you'd think you'd get more going into the next grade, but im not complaining ◝(ᵔᵕᵔ)◜. i hope that it stays this way and i dont suddenly get a mountain of work halfway thru the school year (ᵕ—ᴗ—).
Heyy, it has been a while since I made my first blog post so here’s an update!! School work wise, it’s been fine, I don’t think we’ve really gotten more work since the beginning of the school year, but besides that quite a few things happened. During January we had so many days off, half days, and 2-3 hour delays because of the weather, but then our principal sadly died of cancer, so we got a half day and a day off. Then last Thursday I was sick and stayed home from school and one of my classmates allegedly brought a BB gun because he allegedly was threatening to kill a girl. (Can u guess where I live?) Now that I’ve talked about school, lemme tell y’all what’s new with me. On January 1st, I made my first post on YouTube!! So I'm officially a YouTuber now, then yesterday, I posted my second animation. (You should like totally check it out here —> https://www.youtube.com/@sillypancxke). Now I might be kinda bringing school back into the convo but this is also related more to me, and uhh this is also kinda a vent, but I don’t think I will be bringing up anything triggering. Recently I’ve been finding it very hard to get the motivation to do any of my school work and I’m falling behind on like half of my classes. I’m a straight A student and just a few months ago the thought of getting anything lower than an A terrified me, and I’ve been like this my whole life, but last year it really got to me and took a very bad toll on my mental health, the details I won't get into on this post. I guess now my brain is learning from past “mistakes” and instead of working till I lose all my energy, time, and even happiness, I just have been doing what I want, like watching anime or drawing, and I feel so much calmer and happier. I know it won't take long for my missing assignments to start to get graded and for my parents to start to notice, but I don’t know what to do. I’ve been struggling with my focus, and other adhd symptoms for years now, but I’m not diagnosed, so I can’t get any accommodations. My brother is actually going to get diagnosed soon, and I'm very happy for him, since it has affected him more, at least from my perspective. According to him, he felt bad I wasn’t the one getting diagnosed since I’m the one who will lose sleep over my assignments and won't have enough time for myself. I have already talked with my mom about getting diagnosed, but I think it might not happen very soon. I’m not sure what I’m going to do now, I’ve procrastinated on so many things, in fact, I'm writing this during my study hall instead of catching up on my work. My little sister has even tried to help me by saying she’d buy me a pack of candy if I do all my homework this week and bsf said she’d do my work for me, but I’d feel really guilty if I made her do it, so I’ll try to do it by myself…maybe. Anyways, I don’t wanna end on a sad note, so I’ll tell you something good that happened. My bsf bought me my first Miku figure!! She’s soooo cute and can be posed. She comes with two leeks, a keyboard, a guitar, and different hands and faces. She is currently living on my desk next to my beloved PC. Now I hope you have a wonderful day, byee!!
Summer break has finally started!! To make things even better, my mom's birthday was on my first full day of break, the 6th! We had so much fun. My sister and I took her shopping and to a restaurant. She got sushi, octopus balls, and a free dessert since it was her birthday! My sister and I each got a bowl of ramen. It was sooo good (っ˘ڡ˘ς). Now I'm preparing for artfight, and this will be my first year participating. I'm pretty excited to recive attacks, but also to draw some! I also really want to focus more on my youtube channel now that I have wayyy more free time. I want to make a bunch of little animation memes. I'll prolly always be late to finish them but it's whatever ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. I also want to make least one longer animation or animatic and some short ones to reveal and explain some of my characters' lore. Another goal I have is to hangout more with my friends. I rarely get invited to hangout with the exception of two people and one of them doesn't have a great social battery so she rarely wants to hangout anyways. So, I'll try to be the person to ask cuz hopefully it was just that people thought I didn't want to hangout and not that they were the ones who didn't want to hangout with me :P. My dad also said he'd help me get a 3ds which is great! I've been wanting one for like a year now. I feel like it would help a lot to have somewhere I can play games and not accidentally start doomscolling. I've been stuck choosing between the 3ds xl and new 3ds xl just because the new one has a c-stick on the right and the original doesn't. Additionally, the original has a light pink and white color scheme available but the new one only has a darker pink and white color scheme available (I want the light pink one more). They also are very similarly priced so that's not helping me choose -_-. There are more differences, but since I never previously owned a handheld, I doubt I'm going to notice them. I really hope this summer I do get to do all the things I want to. Thanks for reading to the end! Have a lovely day °❀.࿔!!
So quite a bit has happen this July. First of all...I FINALLY GOT MY ADHD DIAGNOSIS!! I have been waiting for this moment for literally years. I now have meds and so far they're working pretty good! My dad also took the power cord for my PC cuz my little brother was using it too much, so I didn't have it for over a week T-T. He gave it back to me today and said I could have it as long as I changed the PC's password so my brother didn't know it, which was obviously fine by me! A few days ago I unfortunatly think I may have accidentally put one of my only paintings to get recycled ;-;. I was helping my mom by taking out things from the basement that were either being thrown away or recycled, and I think my painting was being stored in a trash bag and mistaken as something to be thrown out. The recycling pile had a bag that had a rectangular shape to it, and after we took all that stuff out, I couldn't find it. It really sucks since I spent a while on that painting and it meant a lot to me. I made it for a project about the genocide in Palestine, and even got verbally harassed by the parents of a friend of mine at the time over it. I luckily still have a good photo of it, but I'd rather have the physical version of it. I suppose there could be a lesson to be learned though about not letting the loss of material things effect you. Although I must admit I did cry a bit over it and take a ride on my skateboard to calm down. Moving on from that, today I hung out with my bsf and she made me a lolita wrist cuff and I glued a bow to a ring. We also skateboarded a bit and saw the fire department come cuz a bush at the nearby McDonalds caught on fire. We were like a block away when it started and the smoke and ash still came over to us which surprised me since it was a pretty small bush. A few days ago my phone battery expanded, and my phone would seemingly randomly restart by itself, but after I realized it happened cuz of the battery I looked it up and it said don't press down on it, it's a fire hazard, don't use it until it gets the battery replaced (¬_¬). So now it's in a metal hello kitty tin. In the meantime, my dad gave me this brick of a phone that's meant to be for traveling so it has a thick built-in phone case. It kinda sucks, but it's still better than nothing ╮(ᵕ—ᴗ—)╭ . Bye for now! Have a lovely, morning, afternoon, or night ⋆.˚⟡ ࣪ ˖!!
(The title of this entry is a reference to the roblox game late july, midsummer ( ùᗜú). )
