wow this school year so far has been soooo much better than 9th grade last year. i've been having alot more fun cuz i finally have my bsf in not just 1 but 2 classes with me ₍₍⚞(˶˃ ꒳ ˂˶)⚟⁾⁾!! I think it feels easier since we don't have as much work which is werid cuz you'd think you'd get more going into the next grade, but im not complaining ◝(ᵔᵕᵔ)◜. i hope that it stays this way and i dont suddenly get a mountain of work halfway thru the school year (ᵕ—ᴗ—).
Heyy, it has been a while since I made my first blog post so here’s an update!! School work wise, it’s been fine, I don’t think we’ve really gotten more work since the beginning of the school year, but besides that quite a few things happened. During January we had so many days off, half days, and 2-3 hour delays because of the weather, but then our principal sadly died of cancer, so we got a half day and a day off. Then last Thursday I was sick and stayed home from school and one of my classmates allegedly brought a BB gun because he allegedly was threatening to kill a girl. (Can u guess where I live?) Now that I’ve talked about school, lemme tell y’all what’s new with me. On January 1st, I made my first post on YouTube!! So I'm officially a YouTuber now, then yesterday, I posted my second animation. (You should like totally check it out here —> https://www.youtube.com/@sillypancxke). Now I might be kinda bringing school back into the convo but this is also related more to me, and uhh this is also kinda a vent, but I don’t think I will be bringing up anything triggering. Recently I’ve been finding it very hard to get the motivation to do any of my school work and I’m falling behind on like half of my classes. I’m a straight A student and just a few months ago the thought of getting anything lower than an A terrified me, and I’ve been like this my whole life, but last year it really got to me and took a very bad toll on my mental health, the details I won't get into on this post. I guess now my brain is learning from past “mistakes” and instead of working till I lose all my energy, time, and even happiness, I just have been doing what I want, like watching anime or drawing, and I feel so much calmer and happier. I know it won't take long for my missing assignments to start to get graded and for my parents to start to notice, but I don’t know what to do. I’ve been struggling with my focus, and other adhd symptoms for years now, but I’m not diagnosed, so I can’t get any accommodations. My brother is actually going to get diagnosed soon, and I'm very happy for him, since it has affected him more, at least from my perspective. According to him, he felt bad I wasn’t the one getting diagnosed since I’m the one who will lose sleep over my assignments and won't have enough time for myself. I have already talked with my mom about getting diagnosed, but I think it might not happen very soon. I’m not sure what I’m going to do now, I’ve procrastinated on so many things, in fact, I'm writing this during my study hall instead of catching up on my work. My little sister has even tried to help me by saying she’d buy me a pack of candy if I do all my homework this week and bsf said she’d do my work for me, but I’d feel really guilty if I made her do it, so I’ll try to do it by myself…maybe. Anyways, I don’t wanna end on a sad note, so I’ll tell you something good that happened. My bsf bought me my first Miku figure!! She’s soooo cute and can be posed. She comes with two leeks, a keyboard, a guitar, and different hands and faces. She is currently living on my desk next to my beloved PC. Now I hope you have a wonderful day, byee!!